Sentient Dreams

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My whole life I’ve been haunted

By everything I’ve ever wanted.

I have walked in its shadow,

I have fed on its life force,

I’ve worn it like a cassock.

It’s my own omen of hope.

Here I stand one as many

Knowing my life is secure

By the standards I have set,

Still that doesn’t make it a ball.

I’ve learned the choices we make

Can hold us captive like slaves,

They can turn on us like beasts

And rip us to shreds like adversaries.

So I chase after these things,

Yet I am not yielded to them.

I’ve put a leash on the beast,

But it’s got me by the helm.

It dictates my attitude

I can’t not dance to its tune.

But I mustn’t let myself down.

I must stand out from the crowd.

So I hang on with one hand,

With the other I withstand.

I’m watching out for myself

Trying for not tripping on my leg.

I am into my dreams deep;

They chase me into my sleep,

I’m rooting for who I am,

Yet scared stiff of being the man.

My entire life I’ve wanted

By the very things I’ve always haunted.

Akpan